‘I just feel like killing myself’-TeeBillz opens up on suicide attempt

Husband to music diva – Tiwa Savage, Tunji Balogun, popularly known as TeeBillz, has shared his depression story. Recall that the showbiz promoter, who at the height of a marital crisis with Savage in April 2016 tried to take his own life by jumping into the lagoon around the Lekki area of Lagos . The experience made him see life from a new point of view and now he is an entertainment life coach.

Speaking in an interview with Linda Ikeji TV, Teebillz opens up about his battle with depression. According to him:” From my experience, it got to a point I didn’t want to be around people. I just wanted to be alone. I was so messed up in the head that I wasn’t myself. So not being myself, I didn’t want to be around no one and would be by myself a lot of times or I’m just trying to use things to get away in my own head. Alcohol can be one of those things that people run to, which was my best friend at one point in life. It was the only ‘person’ I trusted to get me going. It’s a difficult thing I must admit”.

Speaking further TeeBillz said his depressive state made him lose his mind and he wasn’t himself. Hear him: “The Tunji of then was somebody that lost his mind. Sometimes when I reflect back to activities or things that happened back then, It’s hard for me to believe that that was me. The people that actually really know me knew then that something was wrong with this guy, but they could not figure it out. They were not informed or educated about mental health. They could not place it. I was able to pretend to do normal stuffs and pretend that everything is ok with me around normal people. Me not being able to keep it real with myself that something was wrong was the reason why I didn’t want to be with people. So I can just be locked up in my own world”.

When asked how the suicidal feelings started, he said:” I think before 3-4 months before my incident. Everyone around me that are the closest people to me, they knew it. I even had a conversation with them that “Hey, I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I just feel like killing myself.” The people close to me didn’t know what to do, they were not informed or educated about it. For me, I can understand their mindset now. Yeah prayers will do it’s part but it’s not based on prayers only. You have to go get the medical treatment that you need and prayer can be the one to support it. Everyone that knows me know that I love myself. I don’t think anyone loves their self like I do, my confidence level was on 150%. I was fearless”.